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5月19日 I am who I amI am who I am,
Merry Meet to those out there who take the time to read my occasional if not erratic blogs!! Well, I decided to write today, about something that most of us forget quite often, whether it be to adapt to a situation, a friendship, or relationship. Most of us have gone through this... We forget who we are. We become what the other person likes or dislikes, and we adapt to their personnalities. Normally I am not a dependant person, I can be independant, and can see to myself, and the ones I love. That was a trait I admired in myself. But lately, I started to notice that I was adapting to others personalities and discovered that I didn't like it. I got my lesson the hard way, but I figure this is all for the better, and in the long run, eventually I will be able to see it as is. After three years of relationship with someone who does not always appreciate me or what I do for him, I'm taking my stand, and ladies and gents, trust me he finds it really hard. A quick example, last night at supper, he wouldn't stop screaming at me cause he was pissed, tired, and hungry. And truth be told, I can be a bitch if I want to be. Well after the 3rd shot, I got mad, and lifted my plate, and told him if he didn't knock it off, it was gonna land in his face. The shock!!!! OMG it was so funny, but trust me he knows when I lose patience and I've had enough, that I won't hesitate to do it, as I have before thrown a spoon at him. Hihi, it smacked him in the face, not my proudest moment, but he got the message and left me alone for a few months!! All this, to explain, that I have gotten myself in the monotony of a relationship, and as someone once told me co-dependancy. So as I've been thinking this over more and more, I am taking a stand for myself, whether the outcome be bad or good, this is my choice to take. I am the way I am, and the way I see it, is that if it doesn't please you, than looks like a personal problem to me. I am not mean, or despicable, nor do I deliberately hurt people, nor am I heartless. But I'm tired of the constant bullshit, and having to hide who I am, cause it ''may'' insult someone. So let this be loud and clear to all, if you don't like the way I am, then stay clear away from me!! Don't waste my time or yours, and dammit DON'T try to change me. If you do you'll be the worse for it trust me. I am a witch and a bitch, and I have a fucking nasty temper so stay AWAY!!!! |
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